Can you believe it? I sure can't.
I woke up
on the 20th and realized I was 1/3 through the 18 months I'll serve as a
missionary. Kinda panicked a little bit. This is it?? After 6 months,
this is where I'm at? I quickly decided I needed to do something to
change my attitude about this milestone. So I read my journal. Starting with the day I entered the MTC, I read 6 months worth of experiences and spiritual thoughts. Wow!
It was so incredible to reflect on the person I was when I left and see
how different I am now. I've sure learned a lot. And I've overcome a
lot.
I've kind of come up with a list... "10 of the greatest lessons I've learned in the last 6 months as a missionary."
1.) Charity is a gift. It is the greatest of all spiritual gifts. 1 Corinthians 13.... I truly am nothing without charity.
2.) Working with members is the greatest work I've done as a missionary. When you involve the members, miracles happen.
3.)
"Venir" is a Spanish word meaning "to come". It is grammatically
incorrect to use this verb as a command unless you are already at the
place you are telling some one to come to. I find this to be kind of
profound. I have definitely learned that you cannot convert someone
beyond your own conversion. In other words, you can not invite someone
else to "come unto Christ" unless you have already come unto Christ
yourself.
4.) Obedience brings blessings, EXACT obedience brings
miracles. Alma 57: 19-27 explains the story of the Stripling Warriors. I
LOVE verse 19. It explains it all. When you are obedient to the
commandments of God you are protected and you can walk confidently
before the Lord.
5.) As a missionary we tend to ask ourselves
questions... Like, "Am I inspired?" "Did I do that right?" "Are they
ready?" or "Do they like me?"
If I could go back to the
beginning of my mission I would live by the following phrase... DON'T
ASK DUMB QUESTIONS. I would go back and tell myself the following:
These questions simply aren't valid. And they lead to self-doubt
and in essence, discourage you from sharing the gospel. Of course you're
inspired! You have been given the gift of the Holy Ghost and He is your
constant companion. If you truly believe that you are an instrument in
the hands of God and the Holy Ghost will help you know what to say. You WILL
BE inspired and guided as you try to share the gospel. That is a
promise.
There is no right way to share the gospel... If you have only the
needs of the individual you're sharing the gospel with in mind, you'll
never go wrong.
Are they ready? Well, ALL people are ready to
hear what you have to say... Are they ready to accept the gospel? Maybe
not. But they ARE ready to have some sort of interaction with you
regardless.
"Do they like me?" is not a valid question because it frankly
doesn't matter. It doesn't matter if they like you, it only matters if
you love them. If you're thinking about whether they like you or not
then you're thinking about you. Forget yourself and go to work. :) So
back to my first point, Sister Franklin, avoid the "dumb" questions and
ask yourself "What can I do to help?" "What have I done to strengthen
their faith?" or "Who could use a prayer, a visit or even a plate of
cookies" today. You'll waste a lot less time and feel a whole lot better
if you ask yourself questions like that.
Good to remind my greenie-self of some good lessons I've learned. Haha.
6.) Missions are an opportunity to change our lives and work toward becoming the best versions of ourselves we can be. Ether 12:27.
If we submit our will to the Lord He will change us into someone far
better than we could ever become on our own. Weak things will be made
strong unto us.
When I finally just let go and realized this wasn't about me I saw
myself becoming a little more patient, a little more capable, a lot more
kindhearted and a whole lot more humble. It's been great to realize
that I'm really not all-that-and-a-bag-of-chips. Haha. The Lord is the
awesome one.
7.) Thanks to Elder Bednar's The Character of Christ
and MANY experiences I've had on my mission I know that through the
strength of the Lord natural men and women, like myself can become
saints. It's only through the Atonement of Christ that we can be
exalted. It doesn't matter who you are, where you come from, what
language you speak, how much money you have, or what stage of life you
are in... the atonement will heal you.
8.) Similar to number 6, from my mission president I
have learned that the sooner you let go of your pride the sooner you
enjoy your mission. As soon as I decided that LEARNING was more
important to me than my fear of messing up... I learned ALL kinds of
great things! (Imagine that... what a concept! Haha) "The greatest thing
about making a mistake is that you can try again and do it right
next time" --Pres. Calderwood
9.) NO EFFORT IS WASTED. Yes, "Success" is great I
suppose... but what is SUCCESS, really? The most important thing is not
necessarily that you were "successful"... the important thing is that
you TRIED. Elder Hogge said something to me in my first transfer that
has stuck with me the rest of my mission. And that is, "If you're not failing,
you're not trying." Sometimes you just have to have failures. But hey,
that means you put in some effort. And effort is where success comes in.
10.) Every soul is great in the sight of God. New York
has taught me that it's pretty dang easy to write someone off as "a jerk
who is just angry at the world". But in reality, their salvation is no
less valuable than mine. Everyone deserves to be treated with the
respect, kindness and love, because we are all children of a Heavenly
Father who loves us equally. He sent us to the world to take care of one
another... not judge each other. And you know what, some people don't
realize that. So those of us who do understand this, should take that as
an opportunity to practice what we preach.
I continue to learn things everyday. Yesterday for example:
I
was talking with a sweet couple in our ward. They joined the church in
El Salvador and have since had 2 children marry in the temple and have a
son on a mission! I found out their second oldest daughter served a
mission as well. I didn't actually know they had two
daughters... She came back from her mission in 2010 and was diagnosed
with cancer only months after returning. She died about a year later.
Sister Vasquez explained to me that she couldn't be angry with God...how could she be angry with someone who had given her so much? She said,
"She is His daughter too. And He needed a really great missionary to
come to the other side of the veil. He chose the best there was."
I really needed that experience yesterday.
And so.... 11.) God truly has a plan. Though it may not make a lot of sense to us right now, we'll understand one day. When tragedies happen and when hard times come we can take comfort in the gospel. And in the fact that we have a loving Heavenly Father who has given us so much to be grateful for.
6 months down. 12 to go.
Love you all so much!
Hermana Tara Franklin